"Suprise! You're 3 months pregnant!" This is the first thing I heard early morning when I had a call from my colleague. Apparently, it wasn't a good news at that moment and there's only one thing I'm worried about, my family's reaction. Working overseas for your family is like their lives depend on you that this news will burst the bubble in a snap and I just cried realizing what to do next.
Disappointed...yes! To myself I guess causing all the misfortunes and now I cannot clear my head. A few minutes of sobbing, I realized that everything happens for a reason and God will not give this problem that I can't handle. I also realized that having a baby is my long time dream but I'm not sure when I can be ready for it. Maybe this is already a sign telling me it's time for me to have a blessing, a blessing that will change my life forever.
Depression kicked in while I'm waiting for my visa and ticket going back home. I thought a lot of things and asked so many questions like how to say the news, how to handle their reactions, what I will do next since I'm jobless and what will be OUR future--yes, it's a third form already since I'm not deciding for my life only. But one day, one person came into my mind and said I'm still around if you needed help and that person was God. Then I realized, for the past few months I've forgot to call or talk to Him. My situation became a wake up call to me saying "Hey! I'm here waiting for your call." I started praying and talking to Him every minute, every day and night asking all the questions in my head and pleading for help. God never disappoints people who came back after defying Him, a prodigal son in a making. He showed me the way, the right words to say, the gestures I need to do and the answer to my problem..TRUTH. Full of trust and confidence in God that He will not leave me alone in this battle, I spilled out the news to my family. Devastation and anger were anticipated but I held on to Him during this period of grievances.
Happiness. After a few days and weeks of silence, crying and awkward moments in our residence, acceptance came and I was relieved. I never felt so loved by my family like this before. They've showed me too much care and support that I longed for few weeks. I suddenly realized that Family will always be family no matter what you do or you think. It's looks like a cliche but I proved that it's true. Unconditional love is not only applicable to God but also to the family who cares for you so much. You might not feel it by now but there will come a time that you will just say to yourself..LOVE comes in many form and in certain circumstances when you needed most.
Disappointed...yes! To myself I guess causing all the misfortunes and now I cannot clear my head. A few minutes of sobbing, I realized that everything happens for a reason and God will not give this problem that I can't handle. I also realized that having a baby is my long time dream but I'm not sure when I can be ready for it. Maybe this is already a sign telling me it's time for me to have a blessing, a blessing that will change my life forever.
Depression kicked in while I'm waiting for my visa and ticket going back home. I thought a lot of things and asked so many questions like how to say the news, how to handle their reactions, what I will do next since I'm jobless and what will be OUR future--yes, it's a third form already since I'm not deciding for my life only. But one day, one person came into my mind and said I'm still around if you needed help and that person was God. Then I realized, for the past few months I've forgot to call or talk to Him. My situation became a wake up call to me saying "Hey! I'm here waiting for your call." I started praying and talking to Him every minute, every day and night asking all the questions in my head and pleading for help. God never disappoints people who came back after defying Him, a prodigal son in a making. He showed me the way, the right words to say, the gestures I need to do and the answer to my problem..TRUTH. Full of trust and confidence in God that He will not leave me alone in this battle, I spilled out the news to my family. Devastation and anger were anticipated but I held on to Him during this period of grievances.
Happiness. After a few days and weeks of silence, crying and awkward moments in our residence, acceptance came and I was relieved. I never felt so loved by my family like this before. They've showed me too much care and support that I longed for few weeks. I suddenly realized that Family will always be family no matter what you do or you think. It's looks like a cliche but I proved that it's true. Unconditional love is not only applicable to God but also to the family who cares for you so much. You might not feel it by now but there will come a time that you will just say to yourself..LOVE comes in many form and in certain circumstances when you needed most.
